It has been a flurry of thoughts and emotions for me over the past few days. I have been throwing all of my thoughts and ideas about my business and creative pursuits up in the air to reexamine, inspect and theorize - puzzling out where, or if, they still fit in the vision I have for myself and my family. I love what I do and I am very cognizant how extremely fortunate I am to be able to make a living from work that I can do in my home while simultaneously being able to educate my children and spend time with my much adored husband who works in the restaurant industry and keeps odd hours. It's a blessing to have this much flexibility to be sure, but it also leaves a lot of space for ideas - which to me are the biggest deterrent of actually getting anything done.
They never stop. Ideas pour into me with a constant flow - and while I have learned to filter them considerably over the years and only allow the ones related to things I am actually good at or have the ability to do, there are still too many to ever get around to. Every few months, I go through a few hard days of soul searching. I sift through all of the projects I have set up for myself or put in the queue. I try them on and see if they still fit. Sometimes they don't and I have to say goodbye. Sometimes, like a pair of skinny jeans, they don't but I just cannot fully let them go - wholeheartedly certain that I will align with them again at some time in the future (selfies anyone?). And then I pivot. I rearrange and come up with a new plan of action. It's still essentially what I had already been doing, just one or two steps to the left.
Today is one of those pivoting days. Everything has been slightly tidied up in my brain and my line of sight has shifted ever so slightly. I had to let go of a few gems to make room for others that make more sense in my life and the life of my family right now. And I feel at peace. I know that I just have to trust the process and let happenings unravel as they ultimately will. Through this purge however, a few things remain that I continue to be very excited about that pertain to this website and quilling in general. I have begun to create tutorials that I am simultaneously releasing as independent ebooks. This has been a plan of mine for more than six years and it is just now come back around into a space where I can actually make it happen. Someday I'll write about the time that my husband and I emptied our 401K account to launch a website that would facilitate my idea of ala carte ebooks (tutorials essentially) and then sold all of our belongings to travel around and find artists to write for us. We epically failed, but that is a story for another time. Now however, there is space for their creation. Here is the second in the series I am currently working on, Modern Quilling - Retro Flowers Quilled Mosaic You can download it from the shop as a PDF or from iBooks and Amazon. Later on this week it will further be released everywhere that ebooks are sold. This one, along with the first one - The Ultimate Guide To Making Quilled Shapes - are free of charge (except on Amazon because they won't allow it). They won't all be free, but I feel that these first two should be available to anyone whoever wants them.
I hope you enjoy it and I always appreciate your feedback. For the next few weeks I have a lot of work to do in the studio as I am preparing to unroll some new paper colors for both Culture Pop and our new On Edge card stock strip line, so I will have to be working on my tutorials only in the evenings. For the next few, I will be continuing to offer projects that only require the knowledge of rolling the basic shapes to make. They should be fun and I am excited to share them, and all of the projects I have decided to continue to purse, with you - my very favorite quillers.